Overwhelm

For the last few years, I've been specifically and explicitly grading myself on doing things professionally that scare me. I have an entry for it on my tracking spreadsheet to do it often enough. If I follow the normal, very human tendency to avoid things that scare me, I wind up not doing a lot of the important things, professionally speaking.

Overall, it works very well.

The current global pandemic is reminding me of a down-side. If I'm used to working through frequent fear, treating it as a drag on productivity that I just need to bull through, then really *big* fears and anxieties are a bigger problem. I will put my head down to just bull through them, except I don't really make it to the other side. I just wind up not dealing with them, because I'm attempting to keep my head down and push until I'm past them.

COVID is large enough that it will take a lot of time to get through it that way.